Tuesday, February 14, 2012 11:05 PM
It's all in my mind.
Okay, ignoring the front bit with the hectic
Friendship Day sales... ^^ I'm grateful for today.
Really, really, really. =)
Part of me was worrying about today's party at NP room, the one thrown for UOPA Gold.
Somehow, there was just this impression that there were quite few squadmates going. Also, the fact that it would be held in NP room meant to me that those in attendance would, most probably, be the current batch of NCOs and... the higher ups.
Not sure what there'd be to look forward to. ^^
But in the end, half of Hotshots turned up. ^^
In the reading room, chatting away like nobody's business, less than half our attention given to homework... That awesome atmosphere, it feels as if I hadn't been in contact with for a long time. ^^ Squadmates ftw, seriously~♥
The awkwardness... set in rather when we were in the canteen.
In a way, everyone there had to be there.
The two squads of cadets, the NCO squad, the CIs, the TOs. They had a place in the entire process.
... Where does Hotshots fit in this setting, this during-act-mood?
We only belong with ourselves, don't we? ^^
In a sense, we were conducted eventually to go to the centre of the place, yet there we generally kept to ourselves still.
There was one bit that made me feel... a bit down.
The current sec threes, with all spontaneity, went to fall in by the side and started doing hentak while cheering... Some cheer that I didn't exactly catch, but which was dedicated obviously to their NCOs.
I'm not their IC, but I felt lonely listening to them cheer.
It's a queer feeling, knowing that the cheer wasn't for their previous batch of ICs, but the current one. A queer, lonely feeling, when we have to watch that. When I watched them.
The thought was undoubtedly commendable...
But it's almost as if... we'd been taken for invisible.
Not that I've a right to complain. Hey, not my squad. ^^ And we have stepped down.
But that queer feeling...
*shrug*
... To my Superlatives, I'm more than grateful.
That they bothered to, I'm grateful.♥
For the thought, I'm grateful.
For their smiles, I'm grateful.
Still there's this little part of me, whilst feeling grateful, can feel bad to their current ICs.
Whilst we're still around, I think we'll just be dividing their... attention span, their hearts.
And... it's their squad already.
The bilibanja and "Thank you/I love you"s... ^^ It'd have been complete if Kristine were here too. But really...
I'm fortunate.
There feels like a lot more that I felt regarding this bit of today, but perhaps due to the time my brain isn't supplying the sentiments or words- I'll leave it here for now.
♥ ... Yes, I really have a lot to be grateful for... For getting more than I deserve. ^^ Thank... you.More than I can say. =)
Labels: Hotshots♥ /RVNP