Asuna: "What's the difference between the real world and the virtual one?"Kirito: "The amount of information. That's all."
In the scene after, I learnt when Asuna clarified what exactly Kirito meant. That in this real world, there is sensory information that can be replicated in the virtual world- but not really. Never really. And therein lay the beauty of the world we live in, and there the potential for the virtual world beckoned.
Those words jumped out at me for a different reason.
In the virtual world, most of the information you need would be given to you, if not, earned. And that information is sufficient for you to level up and earn points. Objectives achieved.
In the real world, it's never that simiple. Even if the information were given to you, so little are information that you need not verify.
Is it true?
Is it objectively true or true to their knowledge? Is this piece of information still valuable if it were not so?
Do we really know what we know?
Should we do anything once we know?
Does it benefit or harm others to know likewise?
Is it right to withhold information?
Is it right to respond to information given it was a private communication?
Is it right to give information when it arises from your subjective reality?
All this that happened around me without my realisation.
The veil over my eyes with which I happily, obliviously stumble around in.
It scares me to know how much I don't know.
Yet it scares me to know what I now know likewise.
How does one resolve all this? Where is it cruel to intervene, when is it cruel to not intervene?
Wednesday, June 24, 2015 2:09 AM
It's all in my mind.
The sakura pink my sister bought when she heard my exasperation and angst from losing my pure pink pen.
Monday, June 22, 2015 2:06 PM
It's all in my mind.
Precisely because we are so close does it feel so distant.
Sunday, June 21, 2015 7:17 PM
It's all in my mind.
21 June 2015
Keepers of my good reputation.
It is a warm feeling, seeing TJ earnestly attest that I never am aggressive, him frankly comparing my tone to that of a docile mouse, to say that the only way he knows I'm angry is when I state it.
It is flattering to have him disagree with Rajat, referencing the five weeks we have been under the same roof. It is comforting to watch him pull Dexter out of thin air and cross reference as such, and the latter confirming that when I'm angry I'm still nice.
As though my personal bubble has been infused with colourful brushstrokes. How can sentiment swirling so lightly comfort in such tangible ways?
Yet so strange to reconcile.
For I know that I have a bad temper.
For I feel that I am so far from the docile or accomodating picture they seem to perceive.
I'm glad I have them around.
So very blessed, and I don't even think I did anything to deserve it. So much so that I want to leave it there, be a kid and not think.
I don't want to move out of that comforting bubble to consider what would happen if I prove not to be who they perceive me to be.
So contradicting that I am at the same time pleased that Rajat believed my words, believed passive aggressive possible of me, by method of my tone and expressions.
Their reference to those five weeks of living under the same roof, yet how angellic a picture they constructed. Ought I worry that they have only been seeing a facade?
Yet... it is "still me", right? Whatever they saw.. it is still me, right?
7:15 PM
It's all in my mind.
18 May 2015
Such a beautiful night. Almost as though the stars and skies are celebrating with us... yet no one is looking where it is glorious and transient.
And I can't reach that happiness from the shadows in my heart.
Thursday, June 18, 2015 12:36 AM
It's all in my mind.
So many times I drew comfort from this song.
Yet perhaps there is a limit, and thenceforth I will have to slowly refrain.
Because that warmth is intermittent, and words self limiting will remind me that I never ever am the one. Never could be either.
That lapse imprints itself all too prominently on my mind.
Irrational.
That which I thought I would want to know, yet regret hearing.
And for you...
I wish you would find the aggressor for you.
The distance is getting larger- is that deliberate?
Annoying enigma that you are.
I might as well have not returned?
~ Profile ~
Tan Jing Yee
River Valley High School
RVNP HotShots! (sec1'08) Shuqun Primary School
28 July
~ some quotes ~
♥ But I think... I want to live with all my memories. Even if they're bad memories. Even if they're memories that only hurt me... that I'd rather forget. If I keep them and keep trying, without running away, then someday I'll be strong enough that those memories can't defeat me. I believe that because I want to think that there's no such thing as a memory that's ok to forget.
♥ Pain, suffering. It's pointless to just think about those things. The traveler (referring to "The Most Foolish Traveler" by Natsuki Takaya) didn't. That may be stupid to some people but that's not stupid to me. Yuki... Kyo... when you close your eyes, what do you think?
♥ Just as no matter how hard you try to keep it away... despair will attack you again and again. In the same manner hope will return to you. Again and again.
♥ Someday... no matter how cold it is now... the snow will melt. Without fail.
♥ For there to be pain, there has to be kindness. For darkness to stand out, there has to be the sun.
♥ Maybe I'm not perfect. Maybe I have a long way to go. But someday... someday I'll be able to stand and walk on my own. Without hurting anyone... and without being a burden.
♥ We're all born with selfish desires so we can relate to those feelings in others. But kindness is created individually by each person... So it's easy to misunderstand when someone is trying to be kind to you... But, Tohru, people's differences are something to celebrate.
♥ "And if when everything ends, nothing is left in my hands...that's alright."
♥ Mingling with people, hurting them, getting hurt by them. That's how you learn about people and about yourself. If you don't, you'll never care about anyone but yourself.
♥ I want to be the only one... who can help the one I care about.
♥ "I wish I could have lived... In a kind world. Without anxiety. Without fear. Without hurting other people. Without being hurt myself. Only doing the right things. I wish I could have followed... The shortest path... To the kind world I wish for.
I wish... I could have lived my life... Without making any wrong turns. But that is impossible. A path like that doesn't exist. We fail. We trip. We get lost. We make mistakes. And little by little, one step at a time... we push forward. It's all we can do. On our own two feet. Even if we get a little banged up. Someday, we'll reach something. We'll reach someone. We pray."
♥ "Crowds used to make me wonder. How many people would notice if I disappeared? I used to mull over that kind of thing constantly... once upon a time. But now... I'm a little different. It's not like that. It doesn't have to be... A lot of people. Even if it's just one person. That's enough. Having one person... is an incredible thing. Because then... It can't be zero. I was happy. I was happy then, too. I was so happy, it tickled. In the midst of all those people... She singled me out... and found me. And it's the same thing now. Having someone other than yourself... thinking of you. Looking... for you. You can't take that for granted. It's a miraculous and blessed thing."
♥ "... please don't cry anymore. I know that happy things... and fun things.. eventually come to an end. But things that are scary and sad... come to an end too. They always do. Even if you can't always believe that... please don't give up. Live. I want you to live. Even if you make a mistake, even if you take the long way, it's still okay... Just please... please live. Don't give up on pushing forward. Please. At least don't give up on that. Even if I'm not... by your side."
♥ Often times in memory, we have the tendency to overly romanticize the people we care about.
♥ Humans may be fragile creatures, but they're not weak to the extent to being crushed by their painful memories even after they meet with something unfortunate. We're far more resilient that that. Everything will be alright.
♥ "Don't worry, Kanade. What a person has actually gone through is unexpectedly different from what he remembers. Even though that gap may leave him feeling sad sometimes... Even the most vivdly clear memory... will change with time eventually."
♥ "Humans are amazing. Even though they may not see something physically... They'll still sense it. Everything else is the same. If you work hard, others will know that you work hard. If you don't work hard, others will know that you don't work hard."
♥ "Someday... You'll find someone who'll know all your good and bad points... And who'll still love you all the same."
♥ If... There was ever a Land of the Blindfolded, will the people of that land... Understand what it's like to have your blindfold come undone? Even if... Most people will never understand us... There might just be... Someone who can do that. It isn't easy to understand people's feelings... But that doesn't mean... That you're alone.
♥ It is not violence that best overcomes hate — nor vengeance that most certainly heals injury.
♥ The real courage is living and suffering for what you believe.
♥ “If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.”
♥ Do not pity the dead, Harry, pity the living. Above all pity those who live without love.
