So many pretty scenes. So beautiful.
It really is the little things that count.
How I wish I could have shared it with you. But by now,
it's no longer my right,
it's beyond my ability to.
Yet were I able to walk by you again, perhaps I wouldn't have been able to see for your presence,
for you will once more outshine them all.
Saturday, October 27, 2012 10:14 AM
It's all in my mind.
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile So good to me, so right And how you held me in your arms that September night The first time you ever saw me cry
But everything that has a beginning has and end,
and it was not meant to be.
Monday, October 22, 2012 11:57 PM
It's all in my mind.
Took the words right out of my heart.
And the tears began to overflow.
Thursday, October 18, 2012 11:24 PM
It's all in my mind.
Haunted.
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Monday, October 15, 2012 6:25 PM
It's all in my mind.
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5:16 PM
It's all in my mind.
And just sometimes, the chagrin can't be shrugged off. What's left is icy cold where my heart is supposed to be.
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Friday, October 12, 2012 12:47 AM
It's all in my mind.
My mind wandered back.
By now, I only remember that while I was reading it, something in me protested violently, and I fervently rejected the analogy.
My mind being now clearer, I shall liken it as such-
Teeth.
How often do you appreciate them?
Maybe only at the beginning of time, as a kiddo gnawing away at objects.
You've forgotten them by now.
Suddenly a tooth gets violently knocked out.
It hurts. Horribly.
Instantaneously, the fear comes in. What's going to happen? Could this be fixed? When will the bleeding stop? When will the pain subside?
You didn't ask for your tooth to be knocked out.
The gap left is so apparent.
Every time you run your tongue over that spot, it hurts like hell.
Every time, and countless times per day.
But wounds will naturally heal. Like it or not, such is the workings of nature.
The pain is no longer as glaring as before.
The emptiness where your tooth used to be is an expected void.
But nothing has changed. It's no longer there.
Should you not have pulled out the tooth? No, because it was causing you so much pain.
It's not like pulling out a bad tooth. This tooth was perfectly fine.
And its absence inevitably affects the surrounding teeth. Intangibly. Your habits in eating. You can seek out a substitute, a replacement. Thing is, it wouldn't be the same now would it?
Life goes on- but it doesn't really.
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Friday, October 5, 2012 9:43 PM
It's all in my mind.
The wind aside, all who fly need to land.
If you stay beyond your time,
You crash.
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Thursday, October 4, 2012 11:11 PM
It's all in my mind.
Now I wept: Helen Burns was not here; nothing sustained me; left to myself I abandoned myself, and my tears watered the boards.
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17 September 2012
I wish I had found the quote earlier, for it'd have expressed my state of being most accurately then.
Somehow now I have located the steel within me.
Despair... evolved.
Into what, that's the question.
…… 我累了,好累好累。
因为你放弃了,我只好放弃,
独自一人,学着放下。
But I will no longer abandon myself.
I've shed enough tears.
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Tan Jing Yee
River Valley High School
RVNP HotShots! (sec1'08) Shuqun Primary School
28 July
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♥ But I think... I want to live with all my memories. Even if they're bad memories. Even if they're memories that only hurt me... that I'd rather forget. If I keep them and keep trying, without running away, then someday I'll be strong enough that those memories can't defeat me. I believe that because I want to think that there's no such thing as a memory that's ok to forget.
♥ Pain, suffering. It's pointless to just think about those things. The traveler (referring to "The Most Foolish Traveler" by Natsuki Takaya) didn't. That may be stupid to some people but that's not stupid to me. Yuki... Kyo... when you close your eyes, what do you think?
♥ Just as no matter how hard you try to keep it away... despair will attack you again and again. In the same manner hope will return to you. Again and again.
♥ Someday... no matter how cold it is now... the snow will melt. Without fail.
♥ For there to be pain, there has to be kindness. For darkness to stand out, there has to be the sun.
♥ Maybe I'm not perfect. Maybe I have a long way to go. But someday... someday I'll be able to stand and walk on my own. Without hurting anyone... and without being a burden.
♥ We're all born with selfish desires so we can relate to those feelings in others. But kindness is created individually by each person... So it's easy to misunderstand when someone is trying to be kind to you... But, Tohru, people's differences are something to celebrate.
♥ "And if when everything ends, nothing is left in my hands...that's alright."
♥ Mingling with people, hurting them, getting hurt by them. That's how you learn about people and about yourself. If you don't, you'll never care about anyone but yourself.
♥ I want to be the only one... who can help the one I care about.
♥ "I wish I could have lived... In a kind world. Without anxiety. Without fear. Without hurting other people. Without being hurt myself. Only doing the right things. I wish I could have followed... The shortest path... To the kind world I wish for.
I wish... I could have lived my life... Without making any wrong turns. But that is impossible. A path like that doesn't exist. We fail. We trip. We get lost. We make mistakes. And little by little, one step at a time... we push forward. It's all we can do. On our own two feet. Even if we get a little banged up. Someday, we'll reach something. We'll reach someone. We pray."
♥ "Crowds used to make me wonder. How many people would notice if I disappeared? I used to mull over that kind of thing constantly... once upon a time. But now... I'm a little different. It's not like that. It doesn't have to be... A lot of people. Even if it's just one person. That's enough. Having one person... is an incredible thing. Because then... It can't be zero. I was happy. I was happy then, too. I was so happy, it tickled. In the midst of all those people... She singled me out... and found me. And it's the same thing now. Having someone other than yourself... thinking of you. Looking... for you. You can't take that for granted. It's a miraculous and blessed thing."
♥ "... please don't cry anymore. I know that happy things... and fun things.. eventually come to an end. But things that are scary and sad... come to an end too. They always do. Even if you can't always believe that... please don't give up. Live. I want you to live. Even if you make a mistake, even if you take the long way, it's still okay... Just please... please live. Don't give up on pushing forward. Please. At least don't give up on that. Even if I'm not... by your side."
♥ Often times in memory, we have the tendency to overly romanticize the people we care about.
♥ Humans may be fragile creatures, but they're not weak to the extent to being crushed by their painful memories even after they meet with something unfortunate. We're far more resilient that that. Everything will be alright.
♥ "Don't worry, Kanade. What a person has actually gone through is unexpectedly different from what he remembers. Even though that gap may leave him feeling sad sometimes... Even the most vivdly clear memory... will change with time eventually."
♥ "Humans are amazing. Even though they may not see something physically... They'll still sense it. Everything else is the same. If you work hard, others will know that you work hard. If you don't work hard, others will know that you don't work hard."
♥ "Someday... You'll find someone who'll know all your good and bad points... And who'll still love you all the same."
♥ If... There was ever a Land of the Blindfolded, will the people of that land... Understand what it's like to have your blindfold come undone? Even if... Most people will never understand us... There might just be... Someone who can do that. It isn't easy to understand people's feelings... But that doesn't mean... That you're alone.
♥ It is not violence that best overcomes hate — nor vengeance that most certainly heals injury.
♥ The real courage is living and suffering for what you believe.
♥ “If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.”
♥ Do not pity the dead, Harry, pity the living. Above all pity those who live without love.