Tuesday, May 3, 2011 9:08 PM
It's all in my mind.
He basically told me that I was scary.
No matter how he tried to rephrase that, it came out wrong to him.
After all, it kept revolving around the word "scary". ^^
Following a grimace on my part and my looking away, he might have tried to reverse the effect by saying that I looked better smiling. I half smiled, not looking at him, at most at Hui Li.
Of course, it was distracting that Marvin's eyes flicked from Hui Li to me, and back and forth. -_- He being Hui Li's friend, I think he should have settled his eyes on her reaction instead.
I wonder if Marvin thought he had offended me.
No, I was surprised to have a guy tell me that- he is the first one.
But then, I am not offended.
This shell, these expressions, this sarcasm... It is extended to most guys, most acquaintances. Juniors, and people who annoy me.
He just proved that it works.
I wonder though, sometimes- Too effectively?
So effectively, that when I put it down, people tell me that I am out of character?
That aside, however.
I realise that the three of us sitting together at history class,
with the one with a screw loose (Marvin) and the one out of control (Hui Li), and the sadistic one who loves seeing them laugh at all the weird comments...
It is quite enjoyable.
Sorry to the other three groupmates who were like ._. watching us...?
And later during the day...
I am told that I don't have (we don't have) NCO form and 风。
Command sec1s command until... -_- make them become so slack.
Then scold them that time... scold until so nice.
... I thought I was the one who will scream their heads off?
Okay, but good point.
My will is not powerful enough though. I should work on that.
Like Sir said... It's already May.
We are stepping down soon.
... And they are stepping over our heads- or on their way there.
Seriously, their standard...
Ironically as it sounds,
their standard dropped.
They are not making an effort to do much better.
At this rate, they can just do sedia, senangdiri, kekenan-lurus, static and keluar-baris until ROD luh. -_-
I tried to appeal to their feelings during debrief, but... I get the feeling that they won't care, or would just forget. -_-
Prove me wrong, Sec1s. Prove me wrong,
for once.
........ I shook like a leaf during Muster parade. Shit. And it's too much to hope that the cadets missed that.
Damn.
Please give me control over my muscles come Friday. Please don't let me screw up the parade.
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